The question: Is it perseverance or pig-headedness, initiative or insanity?
The answer: It depends on whose behavior I’m trying to change, whose revelation I’m trying to get.
The tried but not true way of living is to beat my head against a brick wall, yet again. Maybe if I phrase it just right, wait for just the right opening, pick my timing – maybe this time that thick-headed soul will see the light!
But this morning I decided I just really didn’t want the resultant inevitable headache of the brick wall encounter. And so . . . believe it or not . . . I kept still and silent. When John finally asked me, “What are you thinking?” I didn’t jump at his throat like a hungry piranha.
How did this miracle occur? Because I waited and prayed and thought of what truths I knew, beginning with: Is this love or is this fear? I know enough to know that when I’m fretting, frustrated, or consumed with some unpleasant thought pattern, I am in fear.
And so, as I thought of what revelations I wanted John to get, I was reminded that I need not fear, that even if John NEVER sees it my way, God is certainly big enough to get around that. And so, when he asked me what I was thinking, I said, “I’m thinking that even when we make a mistake, it’s not a mistake.”
And then I went to be alone and pray. I asked God for a specific word, and I opened my Bible up to Jonah. I got lots out of that story that I never saw before, and I finished with God telling Jonah, in brief, “Don’t you think I know a few things you don’t know, don’t you know you can be wrong even when you’re absolutely sure your way is the only way?”
In short, “Be still and know that I am God.”
I took that literally. Sit still. Don’t move. Don’t be frustrated with the lie-abouts in your house. Rather be glad they’re all still abed so you can have time and peace. Stop trying to change others so God can change you. So you can be still. And know. He is God.